It's been a weird few days for me. If we're being completely honest, everyday is kind of a weird day for me. College is an unexpected jumble of events and I never can plan out what will unfold day by day, which always leaves me surprised and burnt out more often than I'd like. I guess I didn't realize how routine-dependent I was before getting to Lehigh, but learning to go with the flow and learning to be okay with constantly changing plans is just something I have to adjust to...
This weekend was pretty fun; it was eventful because of Halloween in addition to some other unexpected events that resulted in me looking at school with a different perspective. I'm starting to think college is hitting me with all of these random opportunities and changes to make me more adaptable and willing to be spontaneous. Of course, not all changes can be spontaneous, like switching blog domains or going out one night when you planned to stay in. Some changes are more thought out and planned, and those are the changes that hold a lot of weight and meaning. Even though they're a lot harder to follow through on than the fun, spontaneous, light changes that bear no pain or discomfort, these changes are the ones that need to be made sometimes.
Have you ever known you needed to do something, but you really didn't want to do it? I'm not talking about knowing you need to go on a run but you felt too lazy, because I think we all deal with that struggle more often than we'd like to admit. I'm talking about the things we need to do, the big changes we need to make in our lives, to better ourselves as people and work toward a greater goal. I'm talking about the changes that are really, really challenging, and sometimes don't even make us happier when we make them, but they make us more grateful and more appreciative in the end. These are the changes we need to accept are okay. It's okay to do something difficult, that you might not even want to do, if it's going to better your life in the long-run. It's okay to push yourself out of your comfort zone and do the thing you've been scared to do, because you know deep down that you want to, and that you should.
I made one of those changes this weekend. For the privacy of everyone involved I don't want to disclose more details, but I wanted to get this post out to vent as well as to encourage anyone on the fence about doing something they've been scared to do, that it all works out. What is done with good intent works out in the end. Nothing different will ever result from a circumstance without change. And at the end of the day, if something is done the same way forever and ever, can you really confirm it's the right thing if there had never been a blip in the middle of it all to ensure you? Don't be afraid to do something that scares you if there's a good reason for it and a purpose that matters to you.